3 AM Diaries

Lagatar logo ka aana jaana laga hua tha ghar me. Pados wale, jaan pehchaan waale, rishtedaar .. sab aaye..... Chaar baate kahi, dilasa dene waali...aur chale gaye........ Poore ghar me maatam ki ek leher chaayi hui thi.  Deewar ke sahare tik ke khada tha woh, aur uski budhi maa apne bete ki baajuon ka sahara leke khadi thi. Ek toofan sa aaya tha, jisne unke chote se pariwar ko bikher diya tha...    Ek khaalipan sa aa gaya tha, ab us ghar me..  Jin haathon ne kabhi, us ghar ki baag-dor smbhali thi... ab woh haath bejaan ho chuke the... Jis insan ne kabhi, us makaan ko ghar bana ke rakha tha... ab woh insan mitti me tabdeel ho chuka tha...  Us chote se ghar ke bade se kamre me, logo ki bheed ke beech , ek ''safed  chadar'' me lipte hue lete the woh....  Us ''safed chadar'' ko yeh dunia... kafan ke naam se jaanti hai... Mann bhaari tha,  Dil toota tha, Gala bhar chuka tha, Rooh ro rahi thi....  Par is sab ke alawa, ek aur ehsaas

Ab college canteen me woh akele hi baith ti hai....Class me uske bagal wali desk ab aksar khali hi rehti hai...sagar ke kinare ab woh akele hi baith ti hai..  ret me uske pairo ke nishan... ab akele hi bante hain...   Pani ki lehre aur dhalte sooraj ko ab wo akele hi dekhti hai..  Har woh jagah, jahan kabhi uske saath  jaya karti thi.. ab aksar wahan akele hi jaya karti hai...  Uska yun saath chor dena... aur uski kuch kamiyon ko zariya bana ke uski zindagi se chale jana...  Is sab ne beshak use , zindagi ke shuruati daur me kaafi takleef di thi.... par wakt ki daud me usne kaafi kuch seekh lia tha... Raat bhar rona... aur fir subah ek pyari si muskurahat ke saath uthna bhi ek kala hai... aur ab woh is kala me shayad maharath hasil kar chuki thi...  Badi hi khoobsurati ke saath.. apne aansuon ko chipana.. aur muskurana seekh lia tha. apni un kamiyon ko ab apni taakat me tabdeel karna shuru kar dia tha.....  Dard ne beshak use gher lia tha.. is sab ne beshak use